In November of 2018, after seeing my present therapist for about a month, I had a genuine breakthrough that involved learning about my attachment style. Seeing how people with my style (anxious/preoccupied) behave with regards to all variety of relationships, how they tend to view themselves, etc. allowed me to tie together all 34 years of disappointing life experiences and to see how all of them stem from my attachment style. Again, I am a therapist myself, and yet it took the guidance of a therapist to open my eyes. This would not have happened had my therapist not picked up on a few keys words and given me an attachment style questionnaire.
Since then, a lot has changed for me personally, both internally and externally. I have grown much more comfortable with being honest and open about my needs and feelings, with confrontation and being assertive, and in emotional self-control. The virus has put a lot of things on hold, unfortunately. I am still triggered fairly easily, and I still struggle with a lot of things – 34 years of an unchecked anxious attachment style creates some very well defined neural pathways that are hard to redirect, after all. But things are far and away better than they otherwise would have been.